何苦

y do i keep deceiving myself when i noe everythin is not rite. everythin revolve ard me are juz turning towards e wrong end. a life tat have gone veri wrong. first of all, my bro is simply testin my patience, if i had a choice, i wuld rather left him destroy himself, throw his own life away. i got quite sum headache handling human relationship recentli in sch. n coming home, i nid 2 get piss off wif my bro attitude n his selfish acts. he tink stayin out is gd bt he forget he got a mother whose a worry freak. n he himself oni tink of his own leisure bt not his future, ruinin his life. if not 4 my dad, i wuldnt even gif a damn bout it. sumtime ppl r given unforseen tasks tat they din expect wuld happen on themselves.

mayb everythin shudnt hav take place, i shudnt hav met u, thus tis wuldnt turn into wat it is today. a false belief tat is nv true in any way. i mention once, deception is all it takes 2 kill. a mask is e best i can put up. tonite sumthin juz went into my head, such unfulfillment hav never cum across my mind until now, tat i noe things juz isnt gonna work e way i wanted it. i shudnt hav cast hope on anythin, tat tis wishful tot wil blossom some day. i have set my mind straight tis time round, doubtin myself from e start, knowin nothin gd wil ever happen 2 me. its beta 2 tink negative den 2 b elated over e impossibilities. burn my hope 2 ashes, so tat it will nv come back. if oni sum1 wil b there 2 teach me how 2 live. [uncertain]