I'm getting thru it

Agony. probably the only feeling what im having now. physically im quite numb, emotionally im simply derailed. my normal life has been hugely affected by the fact that you have already choose to leave me so sudden. ytd i was quite distraught, i was basically at my hse sofa, lying there senselessly, until my mum came to console me. i finally can't take it anymore, i told my mum about everythin i feel bout tis breakup. bt after having a gd talk with her, i feelin much beta already. I think i have been rather stubborn in my decision, even when everyone has been tellin me to let it go for now. I stil cling on to it bcos i believe i can revive this relationship one day, when i have finally change. but i come to realise how foolish i was, without sparing a tot for my loved ones, how sad they are, how concerned they are, they are also feeling my pain too.

If i don't wanna let them down, i muz become stronger than this. I muz be able to put everything down and move on. so that my life can continue from it stop, i don't wan to be still stagnant down here few years down the road. i muz move on for the sake of myself, my family and my friends. sorry i have got all of you worried bout me and my action. I have decided to let nature take its course, i will not force on anything le. I juz hope that we can remain as friend, i know u wanna move on with your life too, i will let you go, for i believe if we are fated to be together, we will eventually come back together, I will move on and try to become a better person, for my family, myself and my loved ones.

i have come to learn to accept that the fact that you have left me, i got more important challenges to face in the future. I muz especially thank my mum for always being there for me. i always assume you are too busy with your work and religion, that i have not consult you on any problem. i always keep to myself or confide in frens. I did not know of the problems you have been facing over the years. and you did not tell me any of it, cos you want me to concentrate on my future and happiness. From now on, i will live a happier life de. I promise you mum.