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e title summarise my mood, blank. today was a carefree day, at least it did help 2 take my bad memories n worries off my mind 4 awhile. ya went east coast with my buddy, Pat, nicholas, shiro, n pat's parents. brought my bike along, thanks 2 pat's dad car. spend most of e time eatin n cycling. had alot of cockels, tink my blood pressure wil surely rise up alot. as 4 dinner, uncle treat us eat e famous claypot fish head in amk, was really a filling n delicious meal. realli gotta thank them 4 e day programs. u all make my day.

theres a thing in my brain tat i muz realli shout it out, i finally realise im e biggest fool of them all, to tink tat i always tot i can change things, bt sumtime no matter wat u do, it wun b enuff. im so tired of everythin, got so many prob waitin 4 me 2 solve. who wuld ever realise my difficulties. bt i certainly wil learn 2 accept things as it is.

and i dunno if u wil ever c tis, bt e sight of u realli piss me off, b it in sch or else where, dun tink i own u anythin so tat u can cum out wif all tat ridiculous abuse. n dun use ur filthy as a weapon against others. i realli had enuff of u. 2 start with, i nv wanted u 2 b in my life or anythin. if i sound too harsh, so be it. _l_

比我幸福

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独都别在乎
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐
放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独都别在乎

Lost control

first of all, its been long since i last blog, actualli i kinda forget bout it, but nvm, here i am. the last week come n go in a blink. was busy with drivin lessons and school. and to tink i stil got time to go for the talent time of my school, haha wel it was a good experience after all. sometime winning is not so important, its the process that is worth it. im glad that i given my best. wel life goes on.

anyway members of the old gang, maybe this saturday we go nite cycle, destination not confirm. really need to get away from the stressful lifestyle.

actually, if you happen to see this(i tink u know who u r), im really sorry bout what i said on sunday, i really mean it, i hope it will not affect our friendship, i was too impulsive, that's why i wasn't careful with my words. i know you might not forgive me, even if you dun show it, but all i can say now is im really sorry for what i had done, i just kinda lose control on that day. 过往的画面,全都是我不对.

dream on, believe in it...

dull friday

today was the most boring and unhappening friday i ever had. after my drivin lesson, i decided 2 skip my lectures and went 2 sim lim n buy stuffs. n as usual i went 2 e Guan Yin temple nearby 2 pray 4 awhile. after tat i decided 2 take a walk, heading 2 chinatown. bt came 2 a stop at clark quay, by the riverside. decided 2 take a rest n before i noe, 2 hrs has passed with me sittin by the river side. well during this two hours, alot stuffs went thru my mind, mostly problems, b it from the past or now.

when i saw boat passed by the river bank, heavy wave will flow towards me. its den tat i get 2 understand tat those boats were juz like our problems, whereby we r e river itself, when a problem come by, we will experience its effect, but the only way 2 solve it is 2 hang on there, be strong n firm.

although i have sae tis, i stil gotta admit there r things that i cant control, things that influence changes in my life, but i do hope things change 4 e beta.

4 ppl who misunderstand me, i beg 4 ur understnading, i have my shoe 2 fill. n ya, thks 4 e encouragement email u send, u noe who u r. ;?

一路向北

后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别
你转身向背侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会
你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
方向盘周围
回转着我的后悔
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回
停止狼狈就让错纯粹