何苦

y do i keep deceiving myself when i noe everythin is not rite. everythin revolve ard me are juz turning towards e wrong end. a life tat have gone veri wrong. first of all, my bro is simply testin my patience, if i had a choice, i wuld rather left him destroy himself, throw his own life away. i got quite sum headache handling human relationship recentli in sch. n coming home, i nid 2 get piss off wif my bro attitude n his selfish acts. he tink stayin out is gd bt he forget he got a mother whose a worry freak. n he himself oni tink of his own leisure bt not his future, ruinin his life. if not 4 my dad, i wuldnt even gif a damn bout it. sumtime ppl r given unforseen tasks tat they din expect wuld happen on themselves.

mayb everythin shudnt hav take place, i shudnt hav met u, thus tis wuldnt turn into wat it is today. a false belief tat is nv true in any way. i mention once, deception is all it takes 2 kill. a mask is e best i can put up. tonite sumthin juz went into my head, such unfulfillment hav never cum across my mind until now, tat i noe things juz isnt gonna work e way i wanted it. i shudnt hav cast hope on anythin, tat tis wishful tot wil blossom some day. i have set my mind straight tis time round, doubtin myself from e start, knowin nothin gd wil ever happen 2 me. its beta 2 tink negative den 2 b elated over e impossibilities. burn my hope 2 ashes, so tat it will nv come back. if oni sum1 wil b there 2 teach me how 2 live. [uncertain]

DO or DIE!

wel actualli got not much 2 write bout, plus i now takin few mins break from my Process operation & optimization revision, so mite as well make e most out of it. tis ppr tmr wil determine my fate, as in repeatin e module anot. *touch wood* so can say its a do or die ppr 4 me.

2 days ago, i saw e project superstar winner Tan Wei Lian, on my way to YCK mrt. which suddenly make me wanna listen to tat particular last song he sang on e nite of e final. 其实你不懂我的心. n ya, realli wanna use e song e judges always use, 你有感动到我. wel at least 4 tat few mins. as in b4 e final, i was kinda more like rootin 4 e other finalist, kelly. bt tis particular song realli change my impression of Wei Lian. hes gd, n like i said b4, not e most talented in sum ppl eyes, bt e most courageous. n oso, tis song e lyrics is kinda meaningful, although sum mite its juz a oldies tat has been forgotten. bt veri often, we do forget e roots of all gd things. tink i shall end tis entry wif my fav lines of tat song.

你说要远行暗地里伤心, 不让你看到哭泣的眼睛.

A long due wake up call

monday got my simulink ppr, damn downhearted, bt cant blame any1 except 4 myself, i brought tis upon myself. wel it did serve as a wake up call, a long due 1. hav been enjoyin life without doin anythin productive 4 e past few months.

wel mayb totally, finally finishin my drivin lessons le, thks 2 sum unnecessary delay, hope 2 get a TP b4 attachment, to avoid any incovenience. wel tis hungry ghost month haven realli gone quiet all e time, had sum strange encounter, wel at least not encounter, bt it juz tat my figurine in e living room will drop by itself everynite, at e same exact time. n 4 sum reason, its always e same 1 that is droppin, 2 tink i close e glass cabinet. haha, mayb i offend e prayin ornaments that is rite beside my glass cabinet. bt i belive if u dun offend "them" or anythin, dun tink they wont b bother 2 disturb u.life's short, ppl come n ppl go, cherish those ard u.